Good Bye 2018

2018 is nothing like I thought that it would possibly be, it’s been vile, been bad for most of the year. I sit here writing this. I wouldn’t say I’m happy. But I’m working on it. I haven’t received therapy that I have needed since my mental breakdown last Christmas. Bristol Wellbeing Therapies said in February that Pain Management Programme offer similar help as what they offer so they wouldn’t give me any help. Turned out Pain Management didn’t start until August and didn’t give any mental help apart from light CBT. After Pain Management ended my doctor referred me again to Bristol Wellbeing Therapies. After a assessment they said I had low mood which needed to be address, I got put on 1-2-1 low intensity low mood CBT Therapy for 6 week’s which ended 17th. It didn’t help me in any way. When I had a mental health assessment with The Mental Health Crisis Team they said I need to get some in depth therapy for a longer period of time than the normal 6 week program’s. As the waiting list for The Speedwell Centre with Mental Health Team is so long he said Bristol Wellbeing Therapies are the best direction to get help. I’m currently coming off the morphine thay I was taking twice a day, on the recommendations of the psychiatrist that I saw.
Last week I received a letter from Bristol Wellbeing Therapies but only got it yesterday, it was asking me to call to arrange a review via phone, which I called this morning & my appointment is 8th Jan which is good. I have faith in what could be

A Tough Tuesday (2.10.18)

I got home from work yesterday and I was wiped out. So I was in bed and asleep by 6pm. When this morning came around I struggled to wake up. I can’t even remember the alarm clock going off for me to make a doctor appointment, so looks like I shall be doing that tomorrow morning in work. Normally on a Tuesday the alarm clock is set for 10am. But this morning I struggled, I kept resetting the alarm for a bit later. I finally got up 11am. That gives me plenty of time to get myself up and dressed because I have PMP (Pain Management Programme) Session at 1pm. Also get some food in me before we have to leave for Mumski to take me & drop me off at PMP.

Today at PMP we did a “Passengers on a bus” Exercise. It was good then near the end is the session we went through some Strengthening Exercises for us to practice in our own time. I couldn’t sit still as the patch on my left leg was painful so I had to keep moving in my seat.
I missed last session due to my depression and pain. Last week looked like a good session it was primarily about flair up, shame I missed it. I made sure that I picked up the hand outs from last week.
I’ll start reading the “Flair Up” & “Thinking About Thoughts” handouts tomorrow along with today’s “Sleep & Pain” hand out.

After PMP I had to wait 20 minutes for the bus to arrive as usual. Today the cold wind made it a painful wait, I was glad to get on the bus in the warmth. The walk home once I got off the bus wasn’t too bad. The onesie went straight on as soon as I got in home, which warmed me up. Then I put Magnesium Oil on my left leg & that helped get rid of the pain nearly straight away. It’ll be going on before I go to bed to be safe.

I had to sort out my meds & supplements out for 5 day’s, which I normally do 5 day’s at a time. But the sitting & bending over doing it always makes the back hurt. As soon as I was done I sat back on my bed & tried to relax my back which has helped.

I sort of packed my backpack for work tomorrow, well gym clothes are in there. I start again doing yoga class in work tomorrow. It’s a 40 minute class, however I’m only going to do 20 minutes rather than the whole 40. So not to over do it. Bit I am looking forward to doing it.

That’s enough from me today. Bye for now xXx